The Perfect Drug

NEW LJ!

Thu, 20 Oct 2005 01:34:04 GMT

go ................................................................................................................. NOW!

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 21:37:32 GMT

NEW JOURNAL COMING SOON.

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 00:38:48 GMT

so I have to sit out a semester...but I recieved my scholarship and I'm starting in January. Right now I'm trying to get a job and find my family a place we can call home. Talk about responsibility punching you in the face. My mom tells my everyday because of the sacrifices I made, I saved her life. At least some good came out of the whole thing. Be back soon.

Been through HELL and back

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 22:29:40 GMT

. My relationship with my mother is on the rocks because she is a paranoid control freak and power hungry bitch. She's not going to control my every move. But I still have to help her for my sister's sake.
. We're on a tight budget and pratically homeless but found a place in Charlotte. Hopefully we get it.
. Charlotte is a great city. The black population is like 5 times over any other race so my sis will love it there. She's already planning boyfriends.
. My brother opened his shop last week and for me never having a job EVER I worked my ass off helping him and couldn't get paid because my mother was being paranoid and wouldn't let us work(FOR MY OWN FUCKING BROTHER) and pick up our checks.
. RIGHT NOW MY I-NET TIME IS VERY LIMITED. fucking sucks.

Real update when I get more time.

The Ups and Downs in Virginia Beach

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 16:13:50 GMT

Real Entry soon there's too much to write about. On my way to Lexington, NC. See you later people.

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 16:13:58 GMT

Big Bro is coming to pick up the sis and I this afternoon.
I'M HEADED BACK TO THE BEACH YA'LL!
See you in about 4 days or so. My moms left the laptop in NC.

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 02:00:50 GMT

This Cheered me up: http://www.putfile.com/media.php?n=FG-Quagmire-Sleep-Over&width=original. I love Family Guy and Quagmire.

oh yeah

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 23:28:53 GMT

WTF how could I forget: I'm watching THE PREMIERE OF LAGUNA BEACH SEASON 2 tonight.
Don't miss it. hahahah okay. /geekin'

Catching up

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 23:15:52 GMT

Recap:

Drinking Mike's Hard Lemonade(first time) w/ your pops is not a way to get rid of a cold but it sure as hell was good.

I find myself staring at Ms. S's arbor mist everytime I open the fridge...can you say alcohol fiend.

Herbal and Organic is the way to go except when it comes to washing because I love my dove.

I still have the sniffles but other than that I'm good.

My big bro is coming to get me on tuesday so we can go back to VA.

Went to an outlet with the fam on Saturday. It was fun, got me some new threads: 2 pair of jeans and a white shirt with a neat design.

Got me a facial last friday at Belk.

Getting used to wearing makeup, I'm starting to like it.

Trying to get my ibook for school but my dad's being a cheap-hoe.

I need to go dorm shopping.

Missing Michael. I will see you soon.

Right now I'm playing games(because I haven't done that in awhile), getting my school supply list together, and finishing this essay to send off with my portfolio.

cough

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 17:25:32 GMT

we... I'm sick and I feel like shit. That is all.

2nd Family?

Sat, 16 Jul 2005 04:52:46 GMT

I sat here the whole day listening to my "step-sister" who happens to be 13 tell me, my sis, and her cousins about riding dick and all of her little sexcapades....ugh. She tells me everyday that Trina is her role model and she switches the cd to "you know nan" everytime we're in the fucking van while I'm driving and I just want to jit her upside the fucking head sometimes. She act too grown for her age. I've tried so hard to help divert her focus on guys but she has terrible influences.

I went with my dad and his girlfriend to look at the house that they plan on getting...(pics later) and I was caught up in how nice the house was. Then all of a sudden I was jerked back into the present when the realtor ask was my dad and Ms. Steph having a baby.... when "We're talking about it" escaped her lips I had the most bizarre look on my face, I'm so glad their backs were facing toward me. My dad's still married....TO MY MOTHER!!! (though legally separated) I felt like one of those kids that just finds out that their father has a second family and technikcally he did. eh :|

Oh well I'm 18, going to school, I'm escaping this drama. But I'm leaving something perfect behind :[ (if you're reading this...ILOVEYOUBABE and somethingsjustcan'tbeexplained)

I'm going to fulfill my craving for cheesy potatoes and do a shitload of crunches.

The Perfect Drug

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 21:58:40 GMT

"I noticed when I am away from you I start having withdraws like a perfect drug. I have a hard time thinking straight when I am away from you. I cant eat right, or sleep when I want to. I sit by the phone wanting for it to ring. Hoping that everyone time I pick it up its you I hear on the other end. Its funny when you stop and look at yourself do these things. I even get on and off online just to see if you are on. I just guess that's some of the side effects to love. "Love" I call it "the perfect drug." Because nothing so natural as the way I feel for you can be bad for you. I love you, I care for you, and I will always be there for you Janessa. "

-Love,
Mike

His emails make me miss him sooo much. I've been in Maryland for too long.

Maryland...It's a trip

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 21:59:47 GMT

I spent the morning with my dog laying around on the couch[my bed for the time being] at my daddy's house. My back and arms are so sore from shoveling rocks and making a path from porch to porch at Ms. Steph's[my dad's gf] dad house.

I've been getting my stuff together for college....shit I need to get this financial aid crap together so can get my rewards. I'm currently tying to get a powerbook and all those good ol' supplies. I saw my schedule even though I have a hold on it(b/c of transcript and tupid shit). My mom's fixing that prom. So far my schedule's so lax. I take 4 classes 3 of which go on tuesday through thursday. I get my weekends off to work. So far I'm happy with it. :]

I just got through watching 30 Years to Life, I love that movie.

I found a new and cheap addiction to those cafe blends at WaWa's. Waaay cheaper than a frappachino or moolatte (even thought sometimes I may give in to spend a little more). :||

I miss Michael and all of my buds back in VA Beach.

Picture Post funz!

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 20:33:53 GMT

My weekend was fun.

me and the sis played around in the library...they were playing Neverland there but we couldn't stay and watch it.

i was admiring the bathroom...yeah right.

I had business to tend to.

Then we arrived in Lexington aka Lex-Vegas

I immediately call my boy Chris and I took my sis over his house to see he before he left for ATL

silly asses. :\

then I went to my sister [bestfriend] Seana's house.

legs. :]

THE CELEBRITY!!!! we sat around wondering who would name a wagon a celebrity...I guess they were hot back in the day. eh.

we chased and caught some bugs...I haven't done that in a minute.

one last pic before nightfall.

then things got scary.

Seana has this creepy house next door. I swear someone still stays in there or something.

then Kidd started freaking out!

Kobe was too afraid to come out...he had a chuck of his ear missing or something, it was gross.

I stayed until 1 and then I went back to my PaPa's house.

Next Day!!!

my grandmother Ms. So made some eggrolls...and they were gooooooood.

CORN! it was delicious.

all gone...Keia so silly I tell you. Like she's even got an ass.

Then me and Bear Bear went for a walk.

girl talk at the park.

wtf is up with my face?

Sunday was special when I got back to Virginia

3 Years and still going

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 19:57:33 GMT

He completes me and it's going to hurt when I leave. We're going to make it work these next 4 years.

Photopost of my weekend coming soon.

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 02:50:32 GMT

How you ever opened your bag or a box and emptied out all of the items filling it and closed the bag or box and put away. Only to find yourself looking in it a few minutes later expecting something new or unforseen to appear in it. I find myself doing that a lot for some unknown reason. I took a whole bunch of pictures I've just been too lazy to upload them.

Mike and My 3 year anniversary is in less than two days. I want to get him something but I'm broke...maybe a trip to North Carolina will cheer him up when he sees me. I miss him like hell. I feel so empty without him right now but he completes my world as of this moment. I love him so.

I love this song...it's nice. I'm going to put on my Smashing Pumpkins cd and go to sleep...it makes feel closer to him. I sound like an idiot...oh well. :]

The weather here is terrible and I have to get off before this computer cuts off.

FAKES

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 22:06:23 GMT

Wow I just ran across this bullshit when searching for former school buddies in NC on myspace. She took on the identity of one of the singers from TG4 but doesn't say anything about a group or anything. rediculous. Someone should ask her what happened to the group after their one single about virginity. What made me laugh was someone made the comment: "i really like this picture. you're pretty. looks like youre in a music video or somethin " and that shit was an actual still from the video.

this post was pointless...expect it to get deleted... :\

[edit] I just realized the person who left that comment claims to be Ashlee Simpson, ugh. [/edit]

Just Relax

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 16:38:39 GMT

So far this summer has been good. I miss Michael already and I just got to Maryland. My dad says he's giving me the jeep and is going to put the title in my name. That's two vehicles in my name beause my grandma's doing the same with her ford. wow. right now I'm just resting in my own fuck waiting for my sis to hurry up with her shower. I need to make many many many calls and get my portfolio done and sent of to SCAD for the review in hopes of getting my scholarship.

I keep a tablet journal. Michael says he gets confused with my thought patterns so I decided to roll on by Wal-mart and pick up a notepad and some pens. Right now it is filling up with all sorts of odd shit. How do my friends put up with me? As much as my mind switches from place to place, one would think I have ADHD because I get hyper a lot also. Oh well I like my thought process.

MY mom was acting like a bitch. A total bitch. We were doing good and then all of a sudden when my dad comes to pick me and my sis up she starts bitching at us accusung us of having an attitude. I'm like fuck, whatever. I put my bags in the truck and we were off, then she calls up my sis and hangs up on her because she said my sis wasn't listening to her but we were out in the country where the phone was breaking up. oh well hopefully she chills out before we come back to Virginia of North Carolina or whatever.

Back to my portfolio. I also have a lot of planning to do for my summer trip with Michael, Seana, and Shawn.

FUN NEWS

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 18:41:35 GMT

I graduated!
and

I have a girl mullet bleh sort of... It's cute. Mike says I look like an anime.

church was great today. last night was fun.

real update when I get to Maryland tomorrow.

A Few More Hours and it's Over

Fri, 10 Jun 2005 02:42:27 GMT

Tomorrow is the last day of school for me and then it's graduation. Oh well back to studying.

Before night is up...

Fri, 27 May 2005 03:53:44 GMT

I would just like to say...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

Look Ma! I'm all grown up. Feels good to be 18.

Let's get hot in here!!! /p diddy voice.

Wed, 25 May 2005 11:57:42 GMT

It's funny man...there's all these chicks down here lined up at Peabody's up the street. It's freezing out and they've been here since 6am. Most of the are gorgeous so Diddy better pick some better looking chicks with talent because last season was depressing. hahaha.

I'm going to drive down the street on the way to school yelling "good luck girls!"

I know where I'm going for my birthday

Mon, 23 May 2005 03:40:44 GMT

Shmack Clothing and Up Against the Wall
is holding the spring/summer 2005 fashion show over in Excess (21st and Atlantic)
Virginia Beach, VA

Doors open @ 9pm all ages welcome.

Compromise can be good.

Mon, 23 May 2005 03:01:04 GMT

I had a huge talk with Michael and we decided to work things out up until I leave for Georgia...Then we'll figure out from there. Saturday morning was filled with a whole load of "whys" and tears then follow by us making a compromise. The rest of the day we acted as friends. Over dinner we talked it out, then I decided to get back with him and work it out. He understood where I was coming from and is now changing some of those bad habits. I love him for everything he's done so far and my love will always be there for him. He will always be my best friend no matter what.

I love you Michael G. Warren

Yessss!!! \M/

Wed, 11 May 2005 23:46:12 GMT

You are now looking at the newest undergaduate of
Savannah College of Art and Design.

!!!

Michael made my prom whack! I should've ditched him and stayed longer. Damn him. But the blame is on me for letting him talk me into leaving. oh well, it was fun.

I've been so busy this week it sucks. I cannot wait to graduate because I am tired of effing school work and I have a speech due tomorrow.

I've also found out that my mother's sisters are psychotic.